In May 2013 I went through a major paradigm shift in my mind and permanent shift in my life. I went from what can only be described as a, techno geek and internet junkie with a love for gadgets, toys and travelling to someone who does not resemble me or someone I have seen in the mirror before.
I find myself reflecting on some of the characteristics I believe have changed me for the better:
– Selfish. Something I would not have said about myself before but something I have become as the weeks have gone on. I want to protect the inner circle and push away the negative attitudes, the questions and the forced opinions.
– Values. Culture and religion have always been a part of my life,however, they have never been pushed onto me. I pick and choose the aspects I like and justify the exemption of the rest. Now more than ever, I pursue guidance to help those around me and look to make the right decision quickly.
– Reflection. I spend more time looking back at my life and embrace those experiences and situations that stand out for me – making me what I am today. For better or for worse, I look at death differently and want to leave a notion of pride and enthusiasm behind.
– Creativity. I look for new ways to take pictures, write my thoughts and create a timeline of experiences. I have become more ridged in this area and concentrate more on content over process.
– Productivity. As a techno geek, the latest app or piece of technology would always change my work flow and i would always justify a change in the process and reasons for the lack of productivity. I now see the basic things like going to the gym as a perk and not a given. I find myself wanting to be more focused and concentrating on getting things done,so I have more time for family.
– Flexible thinking. Who’s needs do you put first. In a perfect world I would mutually reinforce the importance of everyone in the inner circle. But on this juounery we called life on this beautiful blue planet, needs “are to varying degrees in opposition, imposing frustrations and sorrows and forcing mutual adaptation” says the Group for the Advancement of Psychiatry (GAP).
I am not that old, so i can’t look back on life and be over philosophical. But the first time I held you in my arms my beautiful son, i became a wiser man with a mission to be the best Dad i can.